Internal Family Systems (IFS) is new to me. Guy has occasionally 'done' bits of it, I realise now, as I look back over the past year. But he never named it so I didn't realise what it was. Since my last session I decided to look into it more, and from what I read I … Continue reading Internal Family Systems
Saw Guy with husband and I brought up the way we left it 2 weeks ago, which was where we discussed a need to come back and look at ways we can independently work together without the need of external input. External input like, for example, the psychologist who identified our son as being possibly … Continue reading Couple Stuff
Today I was thinking about how it feels like all the thoughts from therapy (and outside of it, but still linked to it) are like threads dangling in the air above me, each in its own air space, carefully not touching the others near it. But some of them are coming closer and nearly touching. … Continue reading When different threads begin to slowly connect
So I called Guy and we talked. The upshot is that we need to investigated the agitation between sessions and see where is it coming from. Last week Guy attributes the sense of security and connection being down to having heard from the 3 year old self, the little girl who needed her Dad to … Continue reading Phone call
I talked to Guy about the transference today. I literally felt my whole body shake but it was so minuscule it didn't make my teeth chatter, so it wasn't visible to Guy sitting across the room. I began by asking if it's true that he specialised in attachments? He confirmed he does. So I then … Continue reading #40. When a therapist is full of surprises
Okay, first of all, from what very little I've read on the subject, transference seems to be widely misunderstood by both client and therapist alike. So I'm really not an expert with anything I write here, I'm just speaking as I find and so very happy to be corrected. It surprises me transference is so … Continue reading Transference
After this week's session with Guy I came away feeling like I'd had a full meal and didn't need any more food. I was the most relaxed that I've ever been in therapy and felt a sense of safety and connection that felt a new experience. New to that level any way. In fact, so … Continue reading Can’t claim to understand
Dogs love cheese. The end. Oh okay, I'll hang around a bit longer to explain. My wild and feral Labrador who I have failed to train adequately (for health reasons of both human and canine) has been undergoing extreme intensive training to learn to walk to heel. It happened to be necessary to walk her … Continue reading For the love of cheese
I had such a sense of what a huge journey this therapy is. It's immense. You know that whole experience of packing for a holiday, planning destinations and tickets and insurance, and checking you've got passports and money before you set off. Then all the anticipation of all that wonderful sunshine and new sights, sounds, … Continue reading #39. This is such a journey
I feel like such an idiot. Guy called me today and apologised profusely for having not messaged me back last Friday. He said he had read it and meant to text me the following day but totally forgot. He apparently had only just replied to my text before calling me, but then decided to call … Continue reading What a mug
I'm not feeling all that great about my therapy this weekend. I sent a text on Friday asking about switching to a slot on Monday. Guy has happily arranged a last minute switch before, but this he time hasn't replied at all. Recently, I requested to change venues as a one-off (due to other appointments) … Continue reading Uh-oh.
Couple therapy today. It's stopped being parenting/family now that son has largely settled down again for the moment, and it's reverted back to couple therapy again. I was in a bit of a playful and contrary mood today though, not sure why. I do know that I am like this when husband is there because … Continue reading As a couple
Every week between therapy sessions feels like a whole month. Does everyone feel like this? I've mentioned it to Guy and he's also brought it up to me - in fact, he brought it up this past week. I explained it all over again and I wasn't sure he has ever experienced this himself. The … Continue reading What impatience is this?
Just got to update you all about the dog, after my despairing post the other day about her. I feel like I should give her a special blog name and share a photo of her, but she has such distinctive eyes I'd out myself! Anyway, I YouTubed some training ideas to get her to heel, … Continue reading Would you believe it!
Having fretted over Guy possibly thinking I don't need any further therapy interventions, I managed to let Guy know that I really still want to do the book and EMDR. Last week I feared he may be suggesting its no longer neccessary but when I mentioned it he seemed agreeable to still go ahead. I … Continue reading #38. Recap
All my childhood I wanted a dog. Every Christmas and birthday I only wanted a dog. Mum conceded to a pet but it had to be a rabbit or guinea pig; neither of which were a dog. Even though I tried to make them be a dog. I remember the guinea pigs would squeal their … Continue reading Doggie disappointment
I'm a little bit apprehensive after yesterday's session with Guy. It was one of those in-between-y sessions where we talk about a lot of things but skim the surface and don't follow one particular topic in any depth. Much of what we talked about I showed myself to be strong and assertive, even wise, in … Continue reading #37. Should I be concerned?
I don't know if I could be a nurse anymore. If they found a cure for MS, I've always said -quite confidently - that I would go back to nursing the same day. I miss it that much. But today I realise I don't know if I could do it anymore. Why? You may ask. … Continue reading I don’t know