Well, after doubting myself in yesterday’s post about being able to bring up my question in session today, I managed to mention it. Go me! It was touch and go for a moment though, as I went completely blank at the start because I just didn't know how to broach it. It all started when I … Continue reading #30. I did it!
Sitting here thumbing through some old notes I’m considering what to discuss tomorrow. I don’t want this session to be solely about my dear boy, incredibly important though he is, and though I’m happy to touch on his situation I don’t want to miss a proper session like I’ve been doing these past few weeks. … Continue reading What to say tomorrow?
I suppose its inevitable that, sitting on a hot, sunny beach in Greece, listening to the waves rhythmically, almost in slow motion crashing gently on the shore, my mind will wander to what is most important to me in life at the moment. I find being immersed in nature this way more therapeutic than an … Continue reading A few holiday thoughts
I wrote on Mumsnet asking for help with my 9 year old son (DS) because he is so emotional and volatile at the moment. I said: Awaiting therapeutic input and assessments to be completed but every day we have tantrums and tears, over the most tiny incidents that are blow way out of proportion. It … Continue reading Not me directly, but me as a parent
So, in I went to this week's therapy session, bracing myself to address the whole 'termination' topic. I had psyched myself up for this, properly prepared. In other words I had started a thread on Mumsnet(!) and been repeatedly advised to broach the topic with my therapist who would know how to deal with it. … Continue reading #29. Unnecessary
I've had about half a glass. And I feel like crying. And when I feel like crying after my half a glass of red wine, I think of how my therapy feels so uncertain now and how it makes me want to cry. And it makes me think how I wish I had a magic … Continue reading Wine or whining?
So this is going to sound a bit weird and twisted. But I need to ask my therapist Guy to assist me and equip me with whatever tools necessary to cope in the event that he terminated my therapy. Because I think it's only a matter of time before he does. Why do I think … Continue reading A bit weird
We spent a ridiculously long time discussing what happened when Guy put the phone down on me on Monday. It was a good 20-25 minutes, going round and round. For the first time ever I didn't feel I could get him to see what I was saying, it was like I was pouring tennis balls … Continue reading #28. Start of the big repair
Guy put the phone down on me today. I was still talking when it happened. I had cancelled Wednesday appointment this week, sending a text on Saturday, and has been pretty brusque, not embellishing it with "Dear Guy, ..." like I usually would. It was probably obvious I was not happy with him. Then on … Continue reading Changed forever
Today we were in the other room I spotted last week and wanted to go into. It was, as I thought, much better. Uncluttered and simple but reasonably tasteful and very comfortable chairs at just the right height. I was half expecting to pick up where we left off last week but my son took … Continue reading #27. A different side