Today felt so awkward at the start. I was dreading Guy asking me how I am, so I talked about how the weather can’t make up its mind, to distract him in the hope he wouldn't notice I had brightly answered but not actually addressed his: "How are you" question. He then repeated his question. … Continue reading #4. Really good session
To cut a long story short, my husband and I started marriage counselling with Guy the psychotherapist. This suddenly and unexpectedly opened up a Pandora’s box over my past complex childhood traumas, so I asked to see the therapist separately too. We did this with my husbands full knowledge and agreement, on the understanding that … Continue reading Why?
I kind of wanted to add some thoughts about the last session. Guy wanted me to end the session by soothing the little person. He demonstrated stroking his hand gently, saying that she’s safe now, but I didn’t want to, so I didn’t. We talked about Guy’s request for me to regularly nurture her, but … Continue reading Genie in a bottle
*Abuse trigger alert* Overnight I woke as usual with the familiar replaying of one of the experiences I had back then, only this time I tried going there in my imagination to soothe the trapped and anxious child. I don’t know if I quite got it right from what Guy said in our session (but … Continue reading Conquering at last
Abuse trigger alert I told Guy about wanting to kill myself in my grandparent's lovely safe house with a knife from the kitchen downstairs.I was only a child; a child who couldn't bear the idea of returning home to all my problems and I knew I couldn't live here with grandparents, so it seemed the … Continue reading What I said
I don't know quite why it didn't occur to me to keep a record of my first two sessions working alone with Guy. I have no recollection of them and so have no idea what was discussed. At any rate, I began to journal them by the third session and here it is: Just had … Continue reading #3. Third Session
I’ve been in therapy for a good few months now, staring this summer. I kind of fell into it quite by accident when my husband and I became unable to paper over the cracks in our relationship anymore. I point blank refused to go back to Relate like we had done some 4-5 years previously … Continue reading Time for change