T said we're always going to remember this time, in these therapy walks, that your instincts paid off with the tech and with son and his grief. I replied that I think following my instinct was a Green Ball moment, like a solid something inside that will not budge. I tried to make it budge, … Continue reading 🔴 Google trap!
I relayed how husband is really keen to extend the no-tech in the morning because he sees how it's working really well, but I feel I have to be a little bit careful with husband, as he's kind of going down a funny old path at the moment; he's dressing oddly, he's growing weed, he's … Continue reading 🔴 Reducing tech even further
My dodgy MS has presented a new problem for me today. Or at least I think it’s MS. Sometimes it’s hard to tell. I’ve got a known problem with my right hand side. When I first met my neurologist he was amazed I was even able to walk, commenting that I should be a so … Continue reading Painful foot
In the session we'd talked about anger and how it burns itself out after a certain length of time. We were talking about how hard it is not to bite when we are at war with someone like a spouse, and how mindfulness can help. I told T how that I've noticed a recent change … Continue reading 🔴 Alternative to drinking
I’ve lived dissociating these past few weeks. It doesn’t help my memory, but somehow it helps me sleep at night and I need it at the moment. It’s like a drug addiction, I need to keep coming back to it. Yet somehow I’m making sure I am ‘present’ for my boys, as much as they … Continue reading Confused
I made it. I did a whole 9 days without making any contact with T since our last session on Thursday before he took his Easter holiday break. Did I write a text? Yes! Did I sent it? No! I managed to leave the poor therapist well alone the entire time. In my I sent … Continue reading Go me!
I'd just told T about a story where I met a couple who were in a big relationship dispute, clearly not getting on, and how hard that was to see that happen for their children. It made me think about me and husband, and how, when it happens, I don’t always think about how it … Continue reading 🔴 Under fire
We all went out to a garden centre last weekend. Actually, it was on the way back from a rugby game we attended with youngest son. It was only the under 8’s weekly practice, but it was fun to watch. The way it's worked out is that husband takes son to his sporty events, while … Continue reading Kind words of a stranger
In the session, I spoke about how eldest son skipped up to me happily, telling me how much he feels better from speaking to his friend. He cheerfully announced he thinks he IS grieving the loss of his friend after all! This felt good to hear because I had doubted myself so much over this, … Continue reading 🔴 Reactions
I’d revealed to T my persuasion that my autoimmune disorder causing MS, is largely due to the things that happened to me as a child, even though I can’t prove it. T asked if I blame anybody for it? And I said no. I gave the example of a friend who had a no-blame motorcycle … Continue reading 🔴 That’s just life